In Between

I am the in-betweener.
In between today is great! And I wonder how many people would notice if I just disappeared?
In between hey how are you I'm sam and hiding in the corner trying not to be seen.
Between I'm so white omg and I'm not even white! I'm not. I'm 3/4 native American and yeah I'm French and Irish and German. But I am also African American. But can you tell?!?!
In between
I'm that awkward friend that knows a lot of people, and has alot of friends, but no one offers to hang out. I don't belong to any group. Nobody includes me in their plans when they make them. I kinda just happen upon them and get invited...

This Is War

Move back home everyone's happy wonder how long that'll last finally decided that you had enough you want your space you not getting everything because I'm here so what do you do you pick a fight every single day but I've got news for you you may think that you are a bad b**** and you may think but you are harder than me but honey remember something I've been gone for 3 years you haven't been around me the last three years I've dealt with worse than you I promise not exactly the person I was before I left and not exactly a different person I've just changed I've grown stronger I've grown harder I've been in spikes where there was no winner you may think you're winning but believe me you were only adding ammo to my Arsenal I will win I will not sink the cue off your stupid little head put on for so long because I've been gone but guess what I'm back now and just because you've been gone doesn't mean I'm not coming back to take my throne no more days of high strung do as I say attitude I'm f****** little princess and I get what I want no no more because honey f****** Queen just got back you may win a fight here and there but honey This Is War and I will not I will be the victor but at least I'm not the time to leave you stranded out in a field to die no I am gracious I will have I will pull you back up off of Battlefield I will help you heal your wounds but believe me you will know this is no longer a game I am done playing This Is War and you will lose remember I am much more experience now than I was three years ago You Don't Know Me Anymore

It's a fight every single morning because you're not a morning person but I don't care we go through the same routine every morning me I turn on the light I said good morning it's time to get up you roll over and mumbles some curses under your breath I take my dog out I come back in I turn the light back on until you you need to get up now it is time to go you're not a morning person so everyone around you has to suffer because all you want to do in the morning is b**** and complain and start fights with me and for what because you don't get your way easy honey I'm not stupid and people may open their mouths and leak information to you but it's not hurting me she has had enough information on you the last a lifetime and what little you think you may have on me isn't even relevant you're just mad because you are slowly and slowly starting to not get your way more and more and you can't stand it you're not the little princess you thought you were or maybe you are because everyone around you led you to believe that but in the wake of my presence sweetheart or nothing but a follower a sheep but sweetheart you've lost your crown long ago I'm just making it apparent to you that it is actually gone you lie you steal you cheat you put your responsibilities off on others and overall you're just ugly sweetheart you may be beautiful on the outside but you are shallow a millennial a snowflake you're a bully so you may not want to admit it and you never will because you've been going most of your life right or all your life and then you would come home from being bullied all day long and what do you do you become a bull yourself because no one appreciates you like you want them to you so you decide you have to demand it but honey nobody appreciates you we all despise you those cheers you here outside the window? They're actually yelling cursing screaming take her down exclamation point and as a leader of the people I hear their voices I see their face and I will not stand for it anymore you try to manipulate everyone to do your will because you're lazy but why because you're lazy and you never do anything you might think you win just because I'm doing but honey it's just getting lockdown on long long list I'm not done by far well you've been here sitting on top of these pillows on top of the medicine they put you on that you put yourself on I've been gone out to war been through war and terrorism on my body on my heart on my mind and I came out the Victor you see I'm not the week little girl that you thought I was before just because I didn't fight and although I still don't fight not physically doesn't mean I won't doesn't mean I won't win

House Rules

Remember: This is not your house.
Be home by 2am on weekdays
Don't stay out all night
Don't go out too much
You will get bitched at every time you go out
Remember this is not your house
Keep moms secret
Spend a lot of time outside smoking/sitting with mom as her cover
Give mom your cigarettes even though she has her own
Pay rent
Pay the gas bill
Pay part of storage unit
Don't complain about anything or you will get bitched at
Remember this is not your house
Run errands in your car for/with mom whenever asked, without complaint, or let mom borrow car, but never expect gas
Always do exactly what you are told, when you are told to do so.
Don't ask questions, just do it.
Remember this is not your house
Don't remind siblings of the things they've been told to do
Don't tell siblings to do/not to do anything
Do not EVER correct siblings. Go tell mom and dad
Remember you are not the mom
Don't bring dad into arguments
Don't go to mom and dad with "stupid shit"
You will get bitched at for not going to them over something stupid
Remember this is not your house
Do not talk back
Do not argue
Do not defend yourself
Do not interrupt
Don't complain when you get interrupted
Do not get upset
Do not get mad
Do not get depressed
Do not have anxiety
Don't talk too quietly
Don't cry
Don't express how you feel
Do not show emotion
Don't get excited about anything, you'll just be let down
Never be in a bad mood
ALWAYS look/be happy
Remember this is not your house
Respect people's privacy
Do not complain when nobody respects your privacy
Don't use other people's stuff, especially without asking
Don't get mad when people use your stuff more than you do, you should have hidden it
Don't hide stuff cause you don't want people go use it, that's selfish
Remember this is not your house
Don't be tired because you didn't get enough sleep, you should've gone to bed earlier
Do not try to go to bed before midnight, you sleep in the living room
Don't wake anyone up when you come in late
Don't complain when anyone wakes you up late at night
ALWAYS clean up after yourself
Do not complain when nobody else does
Clean up after everyone else
Do not eat too much, make sure there is enough for everyone
Do not complain when there is no food left for you to eat
if you do decide to eat at home, make sure everyone eats fist before making a lunch, including yourself
If you choose to use your portion as your lunch, DO NOT prepare it before everyone else eats
Do not complain when there isn't enough left for you to pack, or eat
Do not complain when you get bitched at for eating too much food when you rarely eat at home
Remember this is not your house
You will be mentally, verbally, and/or emotionally abused every single day you are here
Do not let it get to you, they're just messing with you
Do not tell anyone when anything they say upsets you
Always be happy, but not too happy
Remember: This is not your house.